I've been trying to sit with the memories and pain but I was also afraid I was retraumatizing myself so this morning I wanted to try to...

A bit ago I was thinking about perfectionism and the role it has played in my life. I remember different people throughout my life...

Just a simple picture but there is so much depth in its layers... There's a part of me that has been coming to the surface a lot in the...

A week ago I was finally able to get back into doing inner healing work. I was scared because it felt like it has been so long since I...

Yesterday was the third time that I spent time with Rose, my therapy horse. She is brown all over with a big round belly. Last week when...

If you have been following my story lately you may have heard that I was in the shelter for 7 months...it really took me for a loop...

TW: Child Sexual Abuse I haven't been writing much lately. I've been wanting to but the words inside my head are just all jumbled and my...

On Sunday night I had an individual slip into my DMs implying that she's doing well but that I'm not because I'm not trying hard enough....

Last night in therapy I went to a place I wasn't planning to go. A place that seemed so far away and yet so similar to my current...

Last night I was able to release just a little bit more grief and pain from how my abusive employers treated me...it is still such a...

In February I felt that maybe I'd be out of the shelter by the end of the month. (But that was false)I planned that I would spend March...

Today I was thinking about that question. A few days ago I was asked when the exhaustion started. When I first felt it. I still remember...

Warning: this is a really raw post. Read at your own risk... Right now I'm angry. Angry with the world. Angry with life. Angry with...

See the little girl? She's very young. Maybe 2 or 3 years old. She feels so bewildered and alone. The people who should be nurturing her...

Last week someone sent me these words when I needed to hear them because I have been feeling so pressured to "fit in a box" (which...

Tonight I decided that I want to make tomato soup and a toasted cheese sandwich for supper. I left the room to go to my locker in the...

This past weekend was horrible. I had things I wanted to do but I didn't get any of it done... Friday I went to work and took a picture...

Edit: I had taken this down because I was unsure whether I really should post it but decided to repost it in its rawness... Today is...

Jesus, can I come home? I'm so tired. I just want to be free. Free from it all... And I want a hug. A big one. A long one. A comforting one.

Implicit memories and flashbacks are no respecter of present situations or whether you feel safe or not...They are like demanding teasers sa