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Dec 7, 20235 min read

More Salt

Edit: I had taken this down because I was unsure whether I really should post it but decided to repost it in its rawness... Today is...

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Nov 19, 20234 min read

I Am A Wild Child

Jesus, can I come home? I'm so tired. I just want to be free. Free from it all... And I want a hug. A big one. A long one. A comforting one.

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Nov 16, 20238 min read

Scared Stiff

Implicit memories and flashbacks are no respecter of present situations or whether you feel safe or not...They are like demanding teasers sa

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Nov 11, 202312 min read

Locked Out

I'm struggling to clear the mud out of my eyes so I can try to see clearly enough to figure out what the next thing is to do. I'm trying to

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Nov 8, 20232 min read

Christmas Is On My Mind

Something that's been on my mind lately is Christmas...its been several years since I spent any holidays with my family...next month it...

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Nov 5, 20231 min read

Handfuls of Salt

*If you would like a print of this piece it is available for sale on my website under the Painful Paintings tab... (I wrote this piece a...

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Oct 31, 20234 min read

Sarcasm To Hide The Hurt

(Very sarcastically) If you decide to make a new start in your life make sure that everything you take with you fits in your car that way...

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Oct 27, 20234 min read

Another Blow

I'm still in shock.

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Oct 24, 20235 min read

A Different End To My Day

Also now that I'm here and getting used to the sights and sounds, I am reminded of the group homes that I've been in in the past.

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Oct 18, 20238 min read

Starving For Connection

Graduating from school at 8th grade, the future looked extremely dark. All I could see was that there would now be no escape from my parents

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Oct 15, 20236 min read

The Latest Thing

And I keep hearing my dad's voice "It's just all in your head!" A phrase I often heard when I wasn't feeling well....

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Oct 10, 202310 min read

Globs of Anger

If anger consisted of gooey globs, I'd be flinging it at quite a number of people right now. And...I guess I wasn't expecting to receive s

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Oct 3, 202313 min read

Betrayal: Healing Comes By Feeling

Pretty gruesome, isn't it? I don't know what color pain is but I know how it feels. It is heavy. It hurts. Sometimes...

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Sep 26, 20237 min read

Pressure, Pressure Everywhere

Where does this pressure come from? From people's good intentions. Friends implying their opinions. My own internal dialogue from...

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Sep 19, 20237 min read

Calmly Aggressive

Aggression dressed up in a pretty package is like poison in a relationship. We may be unaware of our passive aggression but we are still...

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Sep 13, 202312 min read

Therapist Analysis

Be brave. Be strong. Be courageous. Fight for yourself. You are worth it.

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Riding The See-Saw of Unhealthy Relationships

Sep 9, 20237 min read

Riding The See-Saw of Unhealthy Relationships

When you trust someone and they "flip" on you as in saying one thing and then changing it later it undermines and cripples your trust...

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Sep 6, 202312 min read

Food Deprivation Harms

There's been something niggling at the back of my mind the last several days and I have been slowly able to put words to it and tonight I...

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Aug 26, 20237 min read