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Apr 239 min read

Sliding Into My DMs

On Sunday night I had an individual slip into my DMs implying that she's doing well but that I'm not because I'm not trying hard enough....

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Apr 2210 min read

Uncovering Some More Wounds...

Last night in therapy I went to a place I wasn't planning to go. A place that seemed so far away and yet so similar to my current...

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Apr 158 min read

Just A Little Bit More Healing...

Last night I was able to release just a little bit more grief and pain from how my abusive employers treated me...it is still such a...

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Apr 128 min read

It Is Not Okay

In February I felt that maybe I'd be out of the shelter by the end of the month. (But that was false)I planned that I would spend March...

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Mar 314 min read

Into The Pit

It was just such a straight out-of-the-blue question that even if something was or had happened that I remembered, I don't think I'd have

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Mar 246 min read

Slowly Suffocating

See the little girl? She's very young. Maybe 2 or 3 years old. She feels so bewildered and alone. The people who should be nurturing her...

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Jan 228 min read

Nightmares Aren't Always Bad

And it reminds that 16 year old part of me of how it used to be at that age. Yes, my parents owned the property but I had no space to...

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Jan 16 min read

My Dream Bedroom

The other day I realized that I have figured out what my dream kitchen and living room would look like to some degree but I've never...

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Dec 7, 20237 min read

Lifting the Burden

This past weekend was horrible. I had things I wanted to do but I didn't get any of it done... Friday I went to work and took a picture...

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Dec 7, 20235 min read

More Salt

Edit: I had taken this down because I was unsure whether I really should post it but decided to repost it in its rawness... Today is...

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Nov 23, 20234 min read

Christmas Dreams

*AI generated photo Now I'm going to start dreaming for Christmas...what my dream Christmas would look like...the colors would be blue,...

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Nov 19, 20234 min read

I Am A Wild Child

Jesus, can I come home? I'm so tired. I just want to be free. Free from it all... And I want a hug. A big one. A long one. A comforting one.

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Nov 16, 20238 min read

Scared Stiff

Implicit memories and flashbacks are no respecter of present situations or whether you feel safe or not...They are like demanding teasers sa

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Oct 24, 20235 min read

A Different End To My Day

Also now that I'm here and getting used to the sights and sounds, I am reminded of the group homes that I've been in in the past.

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Oct 18, 20238 min read

Starving For Connection

Graduating from school at 8th grade, the future looked extremely dark. All I could see was that there would now be no escape from my parents

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Oct 15, 20236 min read

The Latest Thing

And I keep hearing my dad's voice "It's just all in your head!" A phrase I often heard when I wasn't feeling well....

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Oct 10, 202310 min read

Globs of Anger

If anger consisted of gooey globs, I'd be flinging it at quite a number of people right now. And...I guess I wasn't expecting to receive s

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Oct 7, 20232 min read

Two Things

Two things have been coming to mind lately: 1. I have been copying recipes off Pinterest to fill my recipe box with healthy recipes so...

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Oct 3, 202313 min read