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Aug 278 min read

Getting Back Into Inner Healing Work (IFS Therapy)

A week ago I was finally able to get back into doing inner healing work. I was scared because it felt like it has been so long since I...

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Jul 179 min read

Getting Used to Horse Therapy Again

Yesterday was the third time that I spent time with Rose, my therapy horse. She is brown all over with a big round belly. Last week when...

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Jun 255 min read

A Nightmare I Don't Know How To Wake Up From

If you have been following my story lately you may have heard that I was in the shelter for 7 months...it really took me for a loop...

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Apr 239 min read

Sliding Into My DMs

On Sunday night I had an individual slip into my DMs implying that she's doing well but that I'm not because I'm not trying hard enough....

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Apr 2210 min read

Uncovering Some More Wounds...

Last night in therapy I went to a place I wasn't planning to go. A place that seemed so far away and yet so similar to my current...

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Apr 158 min read

Just A Little Bit More Healing...

Last night I was able to release just a little bit more grief and pain from how my abusive employers treated me...it is still such a...

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Apr 75 min read

When Did It Start?

Today I was thinking about that question. A few days ago I was asked when the exhaustion started. When I first felt it. I still remember...

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Mar 246 min read

Slowly Suffocating

See the little girl? She's very young. Maybe 2 or 3 years old. She feels so bewildered and alone. The people who should be nurturing her...

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Jan 228 min read

Nightmares Aren't Always Bad

And it reminds that 16 year old part of me of how it used to be at that age. Yes, my parents owned the property but I had no space to...

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Dec 18, 20235 min read

Big Feelings Over Something Normally Insignificant

Tonight I decided that I want to make tomato soup and a toasted cheese sandwich for supper. I left the room to go to my locker in the...

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Dec 7, 20237 min read

Lifting the Burden

This past weekend was horrible. I had things I wanted to do but I didn't get any of it done... Friday I went to work and took a picture...

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Dec 7, 20235 min read

More Salt

Edit: I had taken this down because I was unsure whether I really should post it but decided to repost it in its rawness... Today is...

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Nov 19, 20234 min read

I Am A Wild Child

Jesus, can I come home? I'm so tired. I just want to be free. Free from it all... And I want a hug. A big one. A long one. A comforting one.

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Nov 11, 202312 min read

Locked Out

I'm struggling to clear the mud out of my eyes so I can try to see clearly enough to figure out what the next thing is to do. I'm trying to

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Nov 8, 20232 min read

Christmas Is On My Mind

Something that's been on my mind lately is Christmas...its been several years since I spent any holidays with my family...next month it...

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Nov 5, 20231 min read

Handfuls of Salt

*If you would like a print of this piece it is available for sale on my website under the Painful Paintings tab... (I wrote this piece a...

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Oct 18, 20238 min read

Starving For Connection

Graduating from school at 8th grade, the future looked extremely dark. All I could see was that there would now be no escape from my parents

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Oct 15, 20236 min read

The Latest Thing

And I keep hearing my dad's voice "It's just all in your head!" A phrase I often heard when I wasn't feeling well....

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Oct 10, 202310 min read