I am a bit hesitant to share all this stuff because I have experienced people who call themselves christians to lash out or try to tell me I'm wrong or that I'm going off the deep end, or to hell basically, because of the choices I've made in the past and... honestly, I expect more down the road. But if you're here reading this I hope you will be open minded and at least follow along on my journey of curiosity. This is about me and where I'm at. It has nothing to do with you. So please don't come at me or try to put me in the "box or belief system" you think I should be in.
I have always been curious. I have always wanted to know how things work. And what really is the truth. Lately, I have fallen down the rabbit hole of energy. Energy as pertains to the human body, clothing, and the universe. With that has come the bunny tails (bits and pieces) of christian beliefs and history from ancient cultures. And how it all ties together.
I'm not sure when this started. I remember reading about the human body being an electricity field and can be measured physically with equipment in the health field.
In horse therapy I learned that horses are sensitive to the energy that comes from one's stomach and that it is possible to communicate with them that way.
A while ago I came across some reels on Facebook that showed how you can listen to music created by plants when their electricity is measured. I found it so fascinating I wanted to get myself a device so I could go around and listen to literal plant music. Here is the website with some videos where you can listen to some videos for yourself:
From there I got interested in fairies and whether they are real or not. The information I found was controversial but what I found interesting was the people who left comments sharing their experiences, many who hadn't told anyone for fear of being seen as crazy.
Not long ago I came across a video that explained how clothing has different levels of energy. The human body has an energy level of 100 hertz. Cotton does as well. Linen is considered a healing fabric and used in hospitals. Wool is similar but there is a bible verse that says to not wear linen and wool together. To not wear mixed fabrics. Someone did a study to try to figure out why. Here is the video I learned more about it:
This got me started looking at what kind of clothing I have in my closet. Most of my clothing, especially my pretty pieces, were all polyester or some sort of synthetic fabric. Some of the most comfortable pieces were made from viscose which is made from wood pulp or cellulose(like the stuff in shredded cheese and parmesan cheese) and made into thread from which fabric is made. Most of the pretty pieces I used to wear to church when I still attended. I decided to do a closet purge, or at least start with my winter clothes that I had dug out for the season. Anything that didn't contain at least mostly cotton ended up on a pile. I decided to not get rid of them right away because I want to make sure I have enough clothing to hold me over till I can find some to replace them. If I'm making a new start in life I may as well do it well even though it's a little sad to part with some of my pretty clothes but I'm sure I will find more. Plus those clothing pieces have bad memories and experiences attached to them as in they remind me of the times I wore them to church etc and the memories collected while I was wearing them.
I was able to get myself a cotton bedsheet set to change out with my cotton poly blend set I had and I must say I've been sleeping so well. I'd have loved to find a linen set but maybe I can at a later date. The organic stuff is really expensive. But along with what I've been learning I had an idea that once I have my own farm I could grow linen. The thought came because somewhere I saw a comment saying that there is high demand and not enough product so that is why it's so expensive. I watched this video of this lady who attempted to grow some on a very small scale:
Since I like being different and unique and doing my own thing, why not have a linen(flax) farm? I can totally see myself at least trying it...
Next I came across this interview about this man who was paralyzed from the chest down and he explains how he put himself together again by focusing his energy and not identifying with the diagnosis of never walking again.
Then I got into listening to another person talking about how he got into studying the bible and ancient texts and how much that the Vatican has changed around and cut out parts of the history that formed the bible to turn it into a patriarchal and manipulating version to control the masses under the guise of christianity. He talks about what Jesus actually did during the missing years and how he learned about all that in history.
Here he talks about what he discovered about the Annunuki that are mentioned in the bible and the hypothesis he came up with from the information he found.
In this one he talks about his journey into studying things and trying to figure out all the pieces of humanity's puzzle. In my opinion, it makes more sense than anything I've ever heard and resonates deep inside as though it's true and I believe there is something to that because if I as a small child was already in tune with my gut instinct about things my parents were involved in, then why do I feel like this could be more true than any other explanation that I've come across?
Still curious about energy, I came across this very informative interview about the healing powers of color energy, gemstones and crystals and how he is able to test the stones to make sure they weren't tampered with. I have found this so fascinating!
Perhaps at this point it would be well for me to say that I have always been very worried about getting into the wrong stuff like new age practices and witchcraft. My parents were involved in a number of different things that I as a small, maybe 6-8 year old, child felt was wrong in my gut. I studied as best I could with what was available to figure out what the bible called wrong and whether the stuff my parents were involved in was actually wrong. So far the stuff I'm listening to has not given me a bad gut feeling. I find it fascinating how aspects of different religions, ifs therapy, and the Bible and history are all being tied together for me.
Two of the men being interviewed in the links above, I love the vibe I get from them. Their mannerisms and body language come across as full of light, love, and wisdom and draws me to want to learn more from them.
Of course, per indoctrination, verses come to mind at random times as I was listening and trying to understand what I was hearing. Such as disobedience is as the sin of witchcraft and in the end people who have itching ears and heap to themselves teachers but are never be able to learn enough. Um, some people might say I fit in that category but I don't think so. I just want to understand how it all works. And... if I had a bad gut feeling I definitely wouldn't be watching this stuff. Other people would say the devil appears as an angel of light. Well, maybe so, but after everything that's been taken out of or misconstrued in what we call the bible, how is it wise to base all our beliefs to that one book instead of looking at history from every perspective before choosing what to believe? Did you know that King James who put together the KJV bible actually beforehand wrote books about witchcraft and other dark things and those books sell better than the bible itself?
Isn't it like creating an echo chamber by narrowing our focus down to one book and putting God in a box? Every religion has been tampered with by man. As I listen to these men discussing what they have learned, studied and seen it makes so much sense. It gives a much clearer picture and adds much more vibrancy and biggness and freedom on top of the bible as we know it today. God is so much bigger and loving and real than I ever grasped from the bible. Even as a young child I wanted to be connected to him and get to know him for who he really is. He is the Source of all creation. And we, each individual, are a part of him, made to be creators too. Didn't he say we'd do the same and more as he did? Just being out of a religious structure frees a person to be more open to the bigness of reality. No longer is it just we are right and every other religion is wrong or that all others are lost. There is so much more than the narrow-mindedness of religion, especially christianity. And I just shake my head as memories march across my mind's eye of all the people who've been so cruel and every single one of them called themselves christian. The name games, the actions, the quoting of verses and beliefs and comments about things being god's will(or not) make me feel like vomiting. It's so shallow and dismissive of reality.
There's just so much to learn. The (multi)universe is so big. And everything and every religion is tied together in one whole thing. Why do we want to stay in the little box of familiarity instead of growing, expanding, and becoming more whole?
Of course, having said all that, I realize there will also be those who are against it or will seek to "debunk" what they say. I did a little bit of research and found good and bad things. What it reminded me of though is that just as in different sects of christianity where people stand so staunchly to their own held beliefs and the next group is wrong, their identity is tied to their beliefs and so when faced with contradictory beliefs and evidence they will lash out or try to get the other person to back down or change their minds. I shared this quote this morning on social media that fits right in with this.
What we need to do is stop sticking to what we were taught by everyone and everything and do our own research and figure out if those things are really true or not and what we will actually believe. This involves looking at the good, the bad and the ugly as well as facing our own path and the trauma and abuse we may have endured and clean the dirty windshield, so to speak. I am giving myself the permission to go down these rabbit holes and follow the bunny tails in an effort to figure out what the truth is and what resonates with my inner self/being and become who I am meant to be and to do what I came here to do. Will you give yourself this permission too?
I might be able to say more but this is a lot already to chew on so I will stop. Thank you for your interest and for reading this far. Please share if you are so inclined....
Blessings on your search, my friend.